An atmosphere can change, suddenly warmer and brighter. I’m sitting here at the warm and light-filled Cleveland State Community College library, which is open until 4:30 p.m. each day this week. Then Friday, like college libraries do, the CSCC library will close for the holidays.
I felt so blue this morning, again, the Christmas blues, but worse, because of so much tragic news, and now another family episode, splintering, hurting, wondering how to adjust, how to accept, how to get this knot out of my stomach, because of more strife and division and heartbreak.
I mention the late great preacher Charles Haddon Spurgeon a lot here, because he seems to have understood so much of real life. One time, Spurgeon wrote that he was feeling low, then a friend wrote back to Spurgeon, about how much it meant to him to learn that even the great preacher felt sad too sometimes.
Spurgeon suffered from sporadic depressions, described in the book “Bright Days, Dark Nights: With Charles Spurgeon in Triumph Over Emotional Pain” by Elizabeth Skoglund.
The artificial Christmas tree looks pretty here, and peaceful, with shiny garland and green branches with, among other colors, lavender and green Christmas ornaments that don’t really shine, but glow, brushed light.
Today, I mailed Christmas cards to my children, with gold seals. It made me happy. It lifted some of the weight off my heart, to think of my children and send them cards. Children do that. You carry your children in your heart forever, no matter what. They glow from there, forever, luminous. Children change everything, for the better. I’m so glad they were born.
- What Made Spurgeon a Great Preacher (pjcockrell.wordpress.com)
- “Then they will cease to wound and kill” by Charles Spurgeon (tollelege.wordpress.com)
- Why C.H.Spurgeon is Called The Prince of Preachers (christcenteredteaching.wordpress.com)