An artificial fiber optic Christmas tree (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
An atmosphere can change, suddenly warmer and brighter. I’m sitting here at the warm and light-filled Cleveland State Community College library, which is open until 4:30 p.m. each day this week. Then Friday, like college libraries do, the CSCC library will close for the holidays.
So, since I don’t have Internet access at home, here I am at another library. Lord willing, I’ll be traveling from one computer to the next, during Christmas break, which sometimes seems too long.
I felt so blue this morning, again, the Christmas blues, but worse, because of so much tragic news, and now another family episode, splintering, hurting, wondering how to adjust, how to accept, how to get this knot out of my stomach, because of more strife and division and heartbreak.
I mention the late great preacher Charles Haddon Spurgeon a lot here, because he seems to have understood so much of real life. One time, Spurgeon wrote that he was feeling low, then a friend wrote back to Spurgeon, about how much it meant to him to learn that even the great preacher felt sad too sometimes.
Spurgeon suffered from sporadic depressions, described in the book “Bright Days, Dark Nights: With Charles Spurgeon in Triumph Over Emotional Pain” by Elizabeth Skoglund.
The artificial Christmas tree looks pretty here, and peaceful, with shiny garland and green branches with, among other colors, lavender and green Christmas ornaments that don’t really shine, but glow, brushed light.
Today, I mailed Christmas cards to my children, with gold seals. It made me happy. It lifted some of the weight off my heart, to think of my children and send them cards. Children do that. You carry your children in your heart forever, no matter what. They glow from there, forever, luminous. Children change everything, for the better. I’m so glad they were born.
Related articles
- What Made Spurgeon a Great Preacher (pjcockrell.wordpress.com)
- “Then they will cease to wound and kill” by Charles Spurgeon (tollelege.wordpress.com)
- Why C.H.Spurgeon is Called The Prince of Preachers (christcenteredteaching.wordpress.com)
December 18, 2012
Brook
2 responses to “Luminous”
Debbie
December 19th, 2012 at 02:29
I’m so thankful for children too, sweet Brook. And that God understands our hearts and minds, when we get the blues. Thank you for the blessing in this . ..one that He reminds me of often ..as you send cards and think of others, the weight lifts some. Thinking of you! God bless you!
p.s. I hope to email you a little poem soon, just something YOU inspired.
Brook
December 20th, 2012 at 17:52
Hi Debbie…yes, God understands and reaching out helps lift off that sad weight. I look forward to seeing the little poem. I think your blog is so clear and beautiful and straight from the heart. *Thank you* again for reading and writing. Hoping to be at your blog soon!